Tag Archives: insecurity

Too Stupid

What are you thinking?
Don’t tell me what you’re thinking
Why should I care?
I’m too stupid to not care
Don’t think of it as a blank stare
I’m just not blinking
Because the nothing left inside
Is all I have to share

The past comes back to haunt
All alone
Memories tease and taunt
Needing to look so strong
All alone
Afraid of getting it wrong

I don’t want to be alone

What was I dreaming?
I want to stop the dreaming
Don’t think I don’t care
I’m too stupid not to care
Don’t want to be misunderstood
There can be no meaning
Because with everything to lose
There’s nothing left to share

Buned to ash and dust
All alone
Doing what I must
Not wanting them to stare
All alone
Wondering why I still care

I don’t want to die alone

Copyright © 2016 Mr. Flying Pig


Six String Smile

Talk a lot but don’t reveal much
Keep it inside, it’s better off as such
Better to live with the invisible touch
Than to be left out in the cold again

Just give me an acoustic guitar to noodle upon
I don’t need to be able to play it well
I just need to find myself for a while
Finding that six string smile

You’ll never understand but I love you anyway
Or maybe that’s the reason I love you
To not be understood is a blessing in disguise
Because nobody knows who you are today

So who are you today?

Always listen but don’t decipher
Pretend that you think you can trust again
What happened once will again occur
Strike first and leave it in dust

So who are you today?

Just give me an electric guitar to thrash upon
It doesn’t even need to be in tune
I just need to lose myself for a while
Trying to find that six string smile

So who are you today?


Pretending to be real
How did you manage to get here?
Right where you wanted to be
Feeling like a place you don’t deserve
Putting up a wall of confidence
The insecurities in strong reserve

You’ve proven yourself time and time again
So why do you feel like an imposter
Hoping you won’t be figured out
And suddenly taken off the roster

Cover up what you feel
An actor inside your career
Only what you want them to see
Insecurities still in strong reserve
Accomplishments make no difference
It’s always a place you don’t deserve

How can they not see behind the curtain?
Turning a knob and pulling a lever
Making them think they know what you’re about
While pretending with each new endeavor

Copyright © 2015 Mr. Flying Pig

That Too

It’s not want
It’s not desire
It’s the ego
And the wanting to be wanted
Maybe that too
Not then
Not now

It’s not need
It’s not passion
It’s just friendship
And the need to be needed
Stark reality?
Maybe that too
Always has
Always will

It’s not thought
It’s not conscience
It’s the emotion
And the loving to be loved
Part insanity?
Could be that too
Maybe yes
Maybe no

Copyright © 2014 Mr. Flying Pig